What am I doing here? What am I waiting for? Asking the same question every day. Is it worth it? Is that how I want to be treated?
People tell me every day that I don’t but how should they know what I want and what I don’t want. How can they say that this ain’t what I deserve? Who are they to tell me what I deserve? Apparently I do deserve this treatment if I wouldn’t I wouldn’t get it. Something tells me this is right even though it kills me. Why am I sitting here? Why am I still waiting for you to come back?
Why do I let you treat me like this? Do I deserve that? Do I want this to happen? Do I know what is right?
This is getting too much this is getting to rational. Why can’t I say no to you why can’t you be straight up with me? Why can’t you decide? Why so I don’t want you to decide? Am I that scared to loose you?! Probably I am. And I can’t help it because I know you’d choose everything over me. At this point you wouldn’t respect yourself you wouldn’t respect me you would try to make everything and everyone else happy. How can you ignore your own wants? Your own feelings? Questions over questions. I wish I could help you I wish I could help myself but I ain’t in control anymore. I wish I’d be.
This might be the hardest decision in our lives but maybe we’ll be stronger afterwards.
I’m just too scared of another loss. Another drop another disappointment..
Life would go on right? We can’t just give up here. You and I. Something that never will work out. Another story.
Thanks.

Let us keep in mind we can’t force anyone to love us. We shouldn’t beg someone to stay when they want to leave. That’s what love is all about - freedom. However, the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of an understanding that love sometimes leaves for a reason.
If someone truly loves you, they will never give you a reason to doubt it. Anyone can come into your life and say how much they love you, but it takes someone really special to stay in your life and prove how much they love you.
Sometimes it takes a while to find the right person, but the right person is always worth the wait.

You run and tell your friends that you’re leaving me 

They say that they don’t see what you see in me 
You wait a couple months then you gon’ see 
You’ll never find nobody better than me

                                                    Kanye West - Heartless.

I don’t know why I put everything on you, why I trusted you so much and why I lost myself in you. I didn’t expect that to happen. You’re telling me you dont want to disrespect your family and your girlffriend though you do by just cheating on them. You are lying to them and don’t tell me that’s not cheating because that’s even worse than just cheat on someone. You cheated on them on both, your family and your girlfriend and now you just keep lying…

I don’t think I have even been that dissapointed in a person. I think I have never put so much effort and respectin someone. I did never feel that way. And here I’m now broken in pieces and realizing why I never felt this way before, I never trusted someone that much. I never told that much about me. You’re making me feel miserable to make everyone else happy besides yourself. You keep lying to me and you don’t even give me a chance to make you happy. 

It’s not right but it shouldn’t fail because of me. I know what I’m doing and I know I’m probably right. You don’t give me a chance?! Fine. Do whatever you want to do but don’t expect me to be your friend afterwards. Don’t expect me to be fine with it. And please don’t expect me to do anything for you. 

I can’t believe you did that to me, that’s the most terrible feeling I ever had it’s the worst. I just want to be happy and I were you you apparently too. But you throw everything away.

You aren’t honest. You’re lying to me and to yourself. 

Thank you for opening my eyes thank you for showing me I can’t trust and thank you for making me never open myself that far for never been able to be honest, to just keep everything I feel for me. Thank you for showing me there is nothing out there that really matters. 

Thanks for showing me that there is nothing out there to fight for.

I know I made a lot mistakes thru the last years but I guess that’s what it is about to while being a teenager. We need to learn how it is and need to know how far we can go how we can tread us and how to tread people around you. Make friends loose friends. Laugh about good times. Cry about a loss. Get to know how it is to be out there without anyone who would support and protect you every second in your life.
Being a teenager; the most exciting part in your life. You get to know to be yourself or do we just think that we’ll find ourselves after this phase?! We don’t know till we grow up.
Being a teenager; trying to find yourself. Pretend to be someone, pretend to be someone you want to be. Lie to yourself and learn from that. Make friends let people go.
Being a teenager is all about making experiences which would teach you a lifetime.
People expect a lot from you. People are bitches and most people don’t deserve you. Most of them don’t care about you. In the end everything is going to be up to you.
It’s your life so get the fuck out of here and start to live.
Live laugh and hope. Stay strong.
“Waiting here in line try to forget the bullshit in my mind. Time is on my side not here to hide.”

I want to kiss you and hear you whispering that we can do this.

“Deep inside your soul there is a hole you don’t wanna see. Every single day what you say makes no sense to me. Even though I try I can’t get my head around you.”

I think about you ever day, every moment I’m on my own, ever single second. You’re driving me crazy. I wish I could hold you. Some moments I even think about quitting though I know that’s not what you want from me. But I wanna make you happy and I want to see you smile. I wanna be with you, kiss you, just want to be around you.
You’re all I’m asking for.

“So gimme hope in the darkness and I will see the light. Cause oh that give me such a fright. But I will hold on as long as you like just promise we will be alright.”

I love you. I love you with all my heart.

There comes a pont where it all becomes too much, when we get too tired to fight anymore. So we give up.
That’s when the real work begins. To find hope where there seems to be absolutely none at all.. 

-Grey’s Anatomy

Friday nights are always the same in this town, I’m looking up but I’m feeling kind of down. - NeverShoutNever

You changed me. You made me happy and showed me that there is something special about me.
You made me laugh and forget about everything else.
But I didn’t know you were just playing with me.
And it hurts to be used.